February 2013, 5pmTeddy’s studioJiy

February 2013, 5pm
Teddy’s studio

Jiyong rushed into Teddy’s studio and started to look around for the accessory. After rummaging for about 5 minutes, he found no sign of the accessory or his wrecked phone. He let out a very frustrated scream that alerted Seungri to the mood that he was in.

Seungri walked into the studio to find Jiyong sitting against the wall where he had thrown his phone at that afternoon. His head was down and again his hands were tearing away at his hair.

“Ji hyung, you might want to stop what you are doing to your hair. You might become bald!”

Jiyong looked up and Seungri was a tad shocked to see tears in his eyes. He walked over and sat down beside his Ji hyung.

“Ji hyung, let’s get you a new phone first then we can get the accessory customized again or better still you can get a new accessory in a pair and give it to Chaerin when she comes back. I know that strawberry whipped cream accessory was a very dear memory to you since that was the first thing you gave to Chaerin. But I feel that’s also a past she might not want to be reminded because after that you never really gave her a gift from the heart again. So why not take it as a fresh start and this time, get her something that would be for her only?”

Hearing what his maknae said, Jiyong felt even more remorseful.

“Did I really treat her so badly? Did I really make her feel that she’s not important?”

It pained him to think about how badly he had treated Chaerin without him actually realizing it.

And she has taken all that in stride and never failed to be there for me when I need her.

“Only you can answer those questions. But if you really want my opinion, then yes, you did treat her badly because how much she gave to you, she never got back even a quarter, so let’s not talk about on equal terms. So many times, we see you making plans with her, then cancel on her at the very last minute when one of your girls called. Yet, when you do that, she would just put on a smile and ask you to have fun or worse to take care of yourself if you happen to lie and said you were staying in the studio to finish up your work. You don’t know how many times she came by, bringing home-cooked food or snacks for you only to see you not in the studio. Why do you think Teddy hyung is so protective over her? He gets to see how much she had given to you yet you don’t seem to appreciate it. Not to mention how she will protect you, saying that it was alright.”

Jiyong was quiet during the whole time that Seungri was talking. He didn’t know all these, didn’t know that she would visit with food and show concern for him.

“I’m really a bad man huh…”

“Yes you are, when it comes to Chaerin.”

“But no one has ever told me about all these things that she did for me, like bringing food over, etc. If only I have known…”

“She didn’t want to burden you with the knowledge. Since you were not at the studio or with us, she figures you were with someone else who was important to you. So she kept her quiet and then told us to have the food AND apologize because she felt bad that she’s only giving us the food because you were not there.”

“So you guys ate the food meant for me?”

“What were we supposed to do? Refuse her? Would you have the heart to do that?”

Seungri paused as if debating whether to say what he’s about to say but decided that he needed to.

“Ji hyung, you need to figure out why you really want her back beside you. If you are just feeling the loss of familiarity now that she’s gone, and you only want her back to gain that bit of balance in your life, then when she does come back, have a talk with her and tell her how you really feel. So she knows where she stands with you and be open to other guys who wants to care about her.”

Jiyong was about to protest when Seungri put up his hand to stop him so he could continue.

“But if you think that you might love her, then you really need to think about how you are going to treat her when she does come back for real. We really cannot bear to see her putting on fake smiles and saying that she’s alright when she’s absolutely not. And I wasn’t joking about going after her. I only haven’t made my move because I know her heart is with you. So consider yourself warned. Even if you can put me off, don’t forget she has plenty of admirers who are just waiting for her eyes to fall on them just once.”

“Have I wasted all that time with all the other girls, got myself heartbroken when the girl I always want to be with was right next to me?”

“Well, like they said, ‘you won’t really know until you’ve gone through it all.’ You are young and you know everyone wants a piece of you. So of course you will be lured into it. We are healthy, young males who just want to have our fun.”

“How does she know that it’s me that she wants to spend the rest of her life with? How can she still hold on to that thinking when I have done nothing but hurt her again and again?”

“I really have no idea. It takes someone with great courage to put in her all time and again without getting anything back. But we could see that she really started to get tired of it during the last leg of their tour. The cancelled concerts in Malaysia and Indonesia didn’t help at all. She felt that she didn’t do a good enough job in leading 2NE1, she felt she had let the fans down. And yet when she tried to seek comfort from you, you were not there. To be fair, we were all not there for her because we were busy with our own tour. But I heard from Daesung hyung that Minzy told him how upset she was and how she stopped herself from contacting you because she knows you were busy too. I guess that’s why she decided to talk to YG about stepping down and not being in Korea for a while after their last album.”

Silence reigned after Seungri said what he wanted to. So many things were going through Jiyong’s mind right now. Truth be told, he didn’t have an answer for the question that Seungri asked: Did he really want her back because he loves her or was it simply because he wasn’t familiar with the idea that she’s not there.

But he did know one thing: thinking about Chaerin with another man caused his heart to ache and left him breathless. Whether that’s love or pure possessiveness, he didn’t know because he never thought she would leave or would find someone else. But now that she had, it did make him think.

He got up suddenly and pulled Seungri with him.

“Maknae, thank you for what you have said to me. I appreciate it but not the part about you going after Chaerin. Like YG said, you have pass me to get to her. Let’s go shopping.”

“I’m the easy rival but there will always be others who won’t stop just because the great G-Dragon asked them to. We are going shopping? Now? At this kind of time?”

“I need a new phone and we need a new TV. So I suggest we get moving.”

“Oh, I thought you were going to shop for clothes. What about the phone accessory?”

“I don’t think I want to rush it. Like you said, I have to think about what I want from Chaerin. When the time comes, I believe I would know exactly what to give to her.”

“Alright, if you say so. Let’s grab dinner on the way too! I’m hungry! I was just dragged from one place to the next for the whole day. Your treat since it’s partly because of you. I will make Chaerin buy me a meal when she gets back.”

“Not alone though. I’m not leaving her with you alone.”

“Deal, but you can’t come along too! Mehrong!”

Seungri ran out of the studio as fast as he could. Jiyong chased after him and when he caught up with him, headlocked him into submission. The leader and the maknae then walked out of the building to do a spot of shopping and to get some food in their stomach.

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