Billy,I hope what I write here bill

Billy,
I hope what I write here billy can understand.
I got married when I was 21 years old.
And I once thought that I will be happy with the man.
But, young will forever be the younger age, it always comes with the milieu and shallow thinking,
And I had to pay the price for the milieu by that marriage.
We divorced after 2 years of living,
My husband is a rude and violent.
I've been through too much suffering and now I almost don't want to remember them again.
At the time we separated, my son is only 9 months old.
I hugged my son and thought to the death.
But then I must be strong,
Because I love my son, and I forced myself to live in good standing, I have to live for ourselves and for the future of the child, it is not a crime.
I have lived quietly quietly, trying to work hard to earn money and take the time out to care for my son.
I want to kill time to not look back to the past.
And I had forgotten about it for so long.
I could not love anyone, though there are also dating several times, and I thought maybe it was due to fate,
I think, no need to go in search of happiness,
At the right time, automatically the happiness will come.
And then I met billy, a lovely and funny guy, you made me feel so comfortable and loved life.
I've been thinking a lot about billy a single men raising children full of strength and experience, I am seeing the fresh from the arid heart despite experiencing many stumble and painful loss.
I saw billy very worthy to love.
I have loved, and had missed the love is gone.